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Benjamin's Smile

1/22/2016

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Deep quiet night surrounds us as I rest back in our living room easy chair. I have just nursed Benjamin and he is plastered to my chest in a nearly unconscious milk doze. His little back arches as his tiny bottom sticks up over my tummy, knees tucked under. Arms fall straight out and down over the sides of my chest and his face, now fast asleep, leans in to me, ear pressed just near the irresistible lull of my heart beat.

I remember Ellie's blanket made earlier that day. It is of yellow flannel, popsicle sticks and multi colored pom-pom balls. I have never seen a more beautiful gift from a more adoring heart. Ellie insists on laying it over Benjamin at every opportunity.

Now my mind slips back to shopping at Aldi's a few days before with Benjamin in front of me in the cart and Ellie traipsing along nearby, nearly bounding about the store in her efforts to be a good helper.

We slowly make our way through the many shoppers and I notice an Amish family come in. Incredibly cute little ones gaze shyly at Ellie with adorable kitten like brown eyes as we pass.

Their busy mother speaks a soft agitated word correcting a child. She sounds just like a mother I know on a busy day at the store. My heart wishes I could connect, yet know our cultures and ways of life are so far apart. I smile kindly and work around them to the next aisle.

Benjamin catches my eye as he is now awake. His still nearly newborn eyes sparkle with a deep piercing blue wetness. Right now they seem to see into my soul and suddenly he smiles up at me, as if to say I am his morning sun and it has just come out. The joy emanating from him stops me in my tracks and I lean over the cart to somehow give him back as much as he has just given me.

Some days it is hard to keep up with his joy. How can he know that the world is a fallen, horrible place, where spurts of peace and happiness are followed by seasons of grievous heartache, where one must fight hard to be thankful, happy, or to just function and keep all the wheels turning. I have noticed that when agitation overtakes me, my baby seems to get a furrowed brow and small whimpers start. Is it just my imagination?

I straighten my shoulders, ignore the pain at times in my heart, and smile and coo over him.

Back in Aldi's I check out with Ellie's almost uncontainable energetic helping hands. Benjamin has started wailing, his high pitched, insistent, everyone-in-the-store can hear it, cry. I have to ignore it and get this job done. I am used to having to do this, but the shoppers around me are not. I can't wait to hold my little boy, but Ellie and I focus on bagging up our groceries.

"Do you need some help?" A lady with long brown hair and a kind smile is at my side. I hesitate. In a former life of not wanting to be an imposition, I would have smiled back and said all was well.

Now I am touched at someone reaching out. Even if I don't need help, I will think of something. I ask her if she could hold Benjamin, and gently lay him in her arms. She coos over him and listens to Ellie's nonstop conversation good naturedly.

I finish bagging the last food items and look up to see the Amish mother smiling at me. I smile back.

A moment has been shared across busy lives and worlds of cultural differences. I take Benjamin tuck blankets around him, happy now, into his carseat for the ride home.

Back in my easy chair it is 3:30 in the morning. I soak in the baby-ness that is one with the rise and fall of my chest.

I cling to that joy, pray harder, and let the memory of Benjamin's smiles wash over me like a loving touch from the hand of God. Surely only He can be the author of such intense beauty, or be the creator of little girls who lovingly lay yellow popsicle blankets over their little brothers.

Thank you, Lord.

​Below: More pictures of JOY.

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Of Things Ice and Snow...

1/9/2016

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Snow has at last come! And what better way to celebrate than check out the ice hockey and skating at the nearby town hall?
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And, in typical Walker fashion, being somewhere I wasn't sure was open yet.
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Upon seeing a gentleman in the inside office, I did check with him to make sure we could use the rink, and he said it would be fine, as long as we didn't use ice skates. Apparently the ice has to be "groomed"  a little more first. The kiddos, and myself, quickly remembered how slippery ice is. We found these handy walkers in the shed and put them to good use!
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Charity realized that the taller you become, the harder your falls. I cheered her up telling her how it was even harder to fall when you were as tall as Mom. And....just think of Daddy falling! The whole rink might break apart as that would be like a tree falling! Her tearful countenance cheered a bit. :)
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We had some great races, next. On your marks...
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Get set....GO!
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And in other news....earlier on a good homeschooling day...all fingers were on deck.
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As we created a counting board of 10's.
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This is from a few weeks ago, and has nothing to do with ice, or numbers, but I have to include a smiling Benjamin somewhere in my post!
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And now back to the story.....We had a great time learning how to fall, and how to keep anyone from taking our pucks...
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As dusk fell and the falling snow subsided, I took a few last pictures of some of my favorite things--my Charity girl and the beautiful wild snow laden forest behind.
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    Thank you for joining our family for a minute as we share with you glimpses of our life in the Northwoods of Wisconsin. Steve and I run a small resort and have four children, Charity, Ellie, Anders and Benjamin. I enjoy writing, cooking, homeschooling, and watching old movies with Steve. :)

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